At times , it seems to me that there are people who would rob me of the elegance of this love, this year of mourning and this Dreaming. I experienced it with my mother’s death.
Eyes hidden and carefully dressed words encouraging a putting away of Mourning Clothes and a rejoining of the World. I said NO then and I say NO now. Noone will take from me the Elegance of events of this magnitude in my life. I refuse to live a small life.
I have One Year of honouring this man who has left me. He would never have left me in Life. And I stand nekked in black sorrow. Head bowed. Arms outstretched. In a long and slow farewelling.
Those who cannot stand with that, can move away.
Those who cannot meet the depths of empty eyes, can look away.
Those who dare not hear the music of departure, can block their ears.
In its exquisite beauty and shocking pain – I make my farewells.
I am in the last dozen days of the First Year and I make the Celtic call of OCHA.
Izzy – Your Lady honours you and your love and goodness. and unwavering fidelity
Farewell, my Iz. Fare thee well.
I’ll get up soon, and leave my bed unmade
I’ll go outside and split off kindling wood
from the yellow-box log that lies beside the gate,
and the sun will be high, for I get up late now
Les Murray 1963
LOST IN THE BUSH
I’d left the camp, and lost my way,
‘Mid tangled vines and ferns;
And puzzled was which way to take
From out the many turns;
When presently I saw some smoke
Through swamp oaks wreathing up,
And close beside me soon I heard
The yelping of a pup.
A forked stick, two sheets of bark,
A low, small fire in front,
And on the ground there sat a black, –
He’d just returned from hunt.
And on the coals a sumptuous meal –
A ‘possum roasting whole –
Among the ashes two corn cobs,
Which he that morning stole.
I told him I had lost my way,
Was weary, and footsore.
He pointed to a log, and then
Was silent as before.
I questioned him – Why all alone?
Where piccaninny, gin?
He sullen looked, and then replied:
“White fellow bin take him.
“And he bin promise gib it me,
Clothes, blanket, and white bread,
Bacca, and rum, and budgery things;
Baal gib it though,” he said.
“And many moons I’ve trabbled bin
With white man long a dray;
But now me going back to tribe;
Baal me now with him stay.
“Almost all gone, blackfellow, now;
Baal plenty kangaroo;
Whitefellow sit down everywhere,
Him take it all land, too.”
He led me on, I’d wandered far,
For now ‘twas almost night,
Then pointing to my camp, he turned,
And soon was lost to sight.
I thought ‘tis late now to begin,
At this the eleventh hour,
Yet still a something might be done
By those who have the power,
For those once owners of the soil,
Neglected thus so long;
I would I had the poet’s gift,
I’d plead their cause in song.
(Kiama Independent, March 28, 1884)