So we had music and good food and company. We talked of many things. Now I feel myself withdrawing again into myself. There are several things I don’t intend doing again. Things that my life with Izzy involved. There are also things which I intend doing again which he didn’t like to do – like flying.

And now its a quiet night at home alone with the heater on. I have a Peter Corris novel to read on my Kindle and the electric blanket is on. I am enjoying solitude again as I have so often done in my life. And I am tired. I think I have a tick on my side. If I become sooky in this time – so be it.  I am sorry for myself and Iz tonight and don’t really care about anyone else – just for one night. I want to snuggle into bed with him – but he is gone.

And then I think of my Boy and my friend , Sandra and I know we have all lost. WE all hurt and sorrow and rouse ourselves to go on living. Sleep now. Perchance to dream.


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Those who will not slip beneath
the still surface on the well of grief,

turning down through its black water
to the place we cannot breathe,

will never know the source from which we drink,
the secret water, cold and clear,

nor find in the darkness glimmering,
the small round coins,
thrown by those who wished for something else.

The Well of Grief
River Flow
New & Selected Poems
Many Rivers Press © David Whyte

Photo: © David Whyte
Summer Evening on the Isis
Oxford May 2015